Great job on reaching out...speaking your anxious thoughts...and using the tools you know will help you! You are doing all the right things!
Still, I know that uncomfortable feeling when anticipating something that makes you feel unpleasant. You can and will get through it...but that doesn't make it fun...so I send my support!
Hope the rest of the day is calm and relaxing for you.
"Courage is not the abscence of fear, it is feeling afraid and doing it anyway!"
"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles...it empties today of its strength."
Corrie Ten Boom
Panic Syndrome recovery due to CBT