Update: Had a really tough day. And my anxiety is clearly wearing on my wife. She is not very empathetic, but I guess I can't blame her. It is probably annoying. I got a few hours' respite by drinking a cup of passionflower tea. It has the effect of temporarily reducing my anxiety and making me a bit sleepy. I was so grateful for the relief. But then it wore off and I was back to being an anxious mess -- very angry at myself and worried.
I am so angry at myself that I am even punching myself in the face often. That is not good. I need to stop doing that.
Tomorrow, I am having dinner with friends. That is going to be hard because I need to "pretend" to be fun and happy, while inside my head will be constant, high-level anxiety, stress and tension. At times like that, I do not feel like being social (even though when I am not experiencing anxiety, I am good at being social). Of course, I could have turned down the dinner invitation. But I am "forcing" myself to do it because I think it might be good for me to get out. We shall see...
Post Edited (medved) : 6/30/2019 6:58:37 PM (GMT-6)