...oh and I forgot to mention congrats on the improvement you have facilitated for yourself, prior to this detour. This is a temporary challenging time, and with the reaching out you are doing and seeking to find new tools to help yourself...you'll be back to that good place (and beyond!) again soon.
"Courage is not the abscence of fear, it is feeling afraid and doing it anyway!"
"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles...it empties today of its strength."
Corrie Ten Boom
Panic Syndrome recovery due to CBT