Posted 8/3/2019 4:10 AM (GMT -6)
Hi. I'm in a pickle. I'll explain slowly and see what you all think.
I had been on lexapro for years at 20mg. When I fell pregnant it wasn't effective, my anxiety hit the roof and it was hell. As I wanted another baby one day, when I felt okish I decided to wean of the escitalopram and take venlafaxine as my sister has just had a baby on it successfully. After 9 days of being on venlafaxine I just couldn't cope anymore. The first couple of days I felt really sick and had hot sweats, then I had intense headaches and migraines, when I looked at my computer screen it was like all the font was protruding out and I'd look at the wall and I can still see the font, sounds wierd I know. Then by day 4/5 came the crippling anxiety. When I was younger I was severly sexually assaulted and while that was happening, he kept on telling me I was 'crap' and 'my life was crap' over and over. It got stuck in my head for ages like it was on repeat. Think it was all connected to the stress of what had happened, but when ever I get anxiety, these thoughts come back, which heightens my anxiety even more. After 9 days on venlafaxine, my doctor switched me back to lexapro at 20mg, no tapering, took it for three days and felt like a rattle snake for the next doctor to tell me to take 10mg, I took that for 8 days felt no better at all and for the last 3 days I've taken 15mg. My doctors have prescribed me with zopiclone to sleep took it for 4 days, didn't work. They've now given me 5mg of diazepam once a day, previously had 2mg twice a day. They've given me 50mg of trazodone to help me sleep. I still feel awful. I was in AnE last week as I didn't feel I could cope with any of it anymore. Every one keeps telling me it will get better. But it doesnt. My heart beats so hard in my chest I feel like I'm vibrating. My arms feel like they are on fire. I'm terrified I'm stuck like this.