Posted 8/6/2019 8:01 AM (GMT -7)
Been a while.. last time I posted was to say my gf had been diagnosed with cancer and she passed away last august. Amazingly enough,I did well through all of it but now as the year approaches,I'm losing my grip. My anxiety is out of control,I'm not eating right and I'm not sleeping right and I've missed work. Her kids,who I raised for the last 10 years are not talking to me and I'm a mess. I wake up sick to my stomach and just anxiety out of control. I've been here before,I know its anxiety,I know I've overcome it before and I will again but I feel really defeated.
I'm going to go back to work today and try and put on a brave face, but when everyone says "you're losing weight,you're not the same", I just want to walk out and cry. Maybe that's what I need to do is find a place to be alone and cry it all out...I dont know.
Just rambling and im.sorry if I dont make sense!!