Dear RA, I was away from the forums for a while now and I am terribly sorry to hear this
The painful feelings linger for quite a while after such trauma, and I am assuming 5 months is a short amount of time. Your distress is quite normal. Very natural feelings. If you dont want to continue with sleep meds you can discuss other optiins with a professional.
Give yourself some time and try not to shoulder everything by yourself. You will eventually notice the pain is getting weaker.
Sending you lots of hugs and healing
Age is just numbers (just stopped counting years) -.-
Sertraline - 50 mg
Panic disorder (Recovered)
Ongoing psychotherapy - talk therapy - CBT.