Kinda long first (maybe?) post, dont remember.
Hey there, i'm from the lyme forum,so not new to Healing Well(lots of posts), but seem to be cured of lyme after many years. That messes up your entire body. Many lymies have anx and dep which get better as the lyme gets better. You really end up learning way more about
the entire body than you ever thought possible. It also causes autoimmune issues in some people (myself), so complete healthfullness might never be a part of ones life again. As a specialized ex pro level athlete in the past (I worked my way up and is wasn't a team sport, so not rich or famous !..LOL), this was/is especially hard on me and changed my future forever. But I am alive and can do some things (and recover) that I could not do without pain for quite sometime.
Life is now, currently better and for the most part, worth getting out of bed........it wasnt before when ill for years. Now in my early 50's, I have already out lived some people in my life, so, yea, being above ground is good, but still not easy to deal with. Lingering autoimmune issues does still have an affect on my life and job choices, but less than the near past. That said, autoimmune seldom gets better...thus the name of it. Its managed at best.
BUT.....This co$t a lot of time and money and of course, some life dreams. So I'm trying to make up for it and getting burned out in the process. I had to put many things off, never got a good career (many dont anymore anyway), home repairs added up ect. I have a hi-tech "job" and then I have self side job on the side which I like but have little time for. I try to live as simple as possible with a simple home / basic purchases, basic cars ect. but life and work still stress me out and I get more anxiety. I had no anxiety as a kid, I want that feeling again but feel its impossible as an adult with responsibilities like work and cost of living. When I competed, I was a vary fine tuned machine that could put everything aside and hone in on the prize, but thats what all good athletes can do. When not competing, most are regular people, human.
My remaining anxiety comes down to To many bills, (and repair $urprizes), not enough time, and still some mysterious health issues. Health anxiety is hard to not think about
. It comes down to stress. I feel like I stress over things I shouldn't- that are part of adult life. I seem to need more "time out" than most people, being introverted is part of that too. Probably not to rare (?). But if this is common, we as a society are not doing so well.
I think my brain chemicals are pretty well balanced vs when it was out of wack from lyme. I did try...Zoloft? back then..made me a boring emotionaless zombie, my sense of humor was gone and I was not any better, prob cause of the lyme.
Im pretty well versed in adrenal support health and adapogenic herbs that can make stress easier, but this seems never ending.
If I won the lottery, I would live a simple life with work freedom, vs these people who spend it all and go to jail or die from all the partyinging and huge purchases. .
A year off of everything is prob what the Dr would order, but thats not possible.
Taking a regular under two week vacation fixes nothing, as you come back home and go back to the daily grind.
I know some people just sell everything and start over- but thats just taking a chance, not really a good one either.....seems like that is the same as running away. I like and aim for stability.
Ive know people that dont do well with societies/lifes pressures, they dont fit in to well and either deal with it by alcohol or pot. Some drunks Ive known are now dead, and the stoners I knew, well, some are still stoned all the time, the others cleaned up there act 100%. Purposely "Bluring" reality is not a permanent solution for me, not going there, thats not how I do things.
Guess if this site had a stress forum I'd post it there. Notice I didnt ask any direct questions on how to fix this, as I bet some here are worse, but yea, Id like to fix this for good.
Ran out of ideas. So Im
open to hearing some new ones. If the lottery had more winners, I'd try, but so would everyone else.
Post Edited (astroman) : 9/7/2019 3:53:06 PM (GMT-6)