Posted 11/14/2019 8:54 AM (GMT -7)
Long post ahead but I'm lost and don't know what to do.
I've been dealing with chronic insomnia for decades. As I get older (just turned 58), the insomnia has really become unbearable. On a good night, I get maybe four or five hours of sleep and I can function pretty well throughout the day. But there are many bad nights when I get little to NO sleep at all. The days following those nights are unbearable.
So about six months ago, I convinced my PCM to let me try some sleeping pills. I was prescribed with Lunexa - 3mg, daily. But as is well known, the Lunexa worked fine initially but as my tolerance to the drug built up my insomnia returned. Lately, there have been nights when I've taken 3, 4 or even 6mg of Lunexa and it had no effect on me.
The lack of sleep has made me a very unhappy person to be around. I snap at the slightest things. One recent event: I took a trip to New Orleans to visit friends in a cancer support group I belong to. When I got to my destination, I went to the car rental counter where I had reserved a car. When I got to the counter, there was no car. Although the guy behind the counter tried to help, I went ballistic. I was screaming and yelling, I was making a scene, etc. My wife was scared, she thought I was going to get arrested. I've always had a 'bad temper' but this was a nightmare. Reflecting on it now, I can't believe I was like that.
So almost two weeks ago, I stopped the taking the Lunexa and I went back to see my doctor looking for help. The Lunesta was no longer working and my insomnia was taking a toll not only on me, but those around me.
After filling out questionnaires asking me my medical history and talking with the doc for a bit, the doctor felt I had the classic signs of mild depression and generalized anxiety disorder. Accordingly, I've been prescribed bupropion, 150 mg each morning, along with 100mg of trazodone, which I am to take each night to help me sleep.
In addition to the trazodone at bedtime, I am also taking 1.5mg of melatonin ('Midnite' sleep aid, also contains lemon balm, chamomile and lavender) as well as some CBD tincture that I picked up at my local dispensary (one eye-dropper full under the tongue at bedtime).
You would think with the trazodone, melatonin, and CBD tincture that I should easily fall asleep when i head to bed at 10:00 p.m. each night. But, nope, I rarely even feel drowsy. I cannot understand how nothing seems to help.
I've been using an app on my phone to track my sleep. Here's what I've been dealing with for the past week:
Nov 9 - 3 hours of sleep
Nov 10 - 4 hours of sleep
Nov 11 - 4.5 hours of sleep
Nov 12 - 40 minutes of sleep
Nov 13 - 4.5 hours of sleep
Nov 14 - 2 hours of sleep
I am unable to concentrate or focus at work. I'm a software engineer / computer programmer by trade so this is not good. Additionally, I have to drive to the office two days a week, 1.5 hours each way. Today while driving to work, I felt uncomfortable and unsafe. I'm worried that I'm going to get into an accident and hurt myself or others.
I don't know what to do. I know these drugs can take several weeks in order to start working but shouldn't I feel at least something by now?. I'm approaching two weeks on these drugs and so far I am not feeling any therapeutic effects. None. I don't know how much longer I can keep this up.
John - Colorado Springs, CO