As a bipolar, I can't really drive a car without thinking the other drivers are out to get me. If somebody is too close to my back bumper, I want to get out and beat the stuffings out of them.
I've been in two road rage situations, where the drivers actually got out of their cars, one was about
to approach me, and the other one did before I drove off through a red light.
I had to stop driving for health reasons, mine and theirs. None of my drivers have ever stopped the car and threatened to beat the stuffings out of anybody. None of my drivers have ever had bipolar disorder. My dad stopped and got out of the car once, but he had anger personality disorder.
I can't hardly walk around the block without getting into it with somebody. The only thing that saves me is there are not many people who walk around my block.
I used to have neighbors on all three sides of me who I got into it with. I now have only two neighbors who I get into it with because the third one moved, and the house has sat vacant for four years. That house I have no problem with.
I haven't seen my grown son in three years because he hacked me off.
Besides not driving anymore, another thing that helps me is that I take Lithium for the mania part of my bipolar and Mirtazapine for the depression. The Lithium reduces my paranoia.
I've had many jobs where I got into trouble with my co-workers.
You say, "I thought depression was more having suicide thoughts and bursting into tears a lot.
I’ve been unmotivated for years. And not feeling like getting out of bed in the morning is just from my sleep apnea."
And, "I read a Facebook post that said that depression was not having the motivation to do anything. I thought that was just laziness."
And, "I was bullied my mean women at my part time job for over 6 months. It was constant indirect harassment. I left and the one woman stalked me to the other job. She trashed me to all the surrounding businesses. People I didn’t even know were talking about
me. She posted something about
me on the internet which I don’t even know how to find."
So, I'm wondering, do you see a psychiatrist? They deal with people like us, thank goodness. They can improve depression.
Post Edited (Tim Tam) : 2/7/2020 5:11:03 PM (GMT-7)