I know I sound bad. I think I am getting better though, at least for now. For the past few years I just did not even admit my anxiety was ruining my life. I do ok for a few days or a week then things snowball until I have a full blown anxiety attack. If I can calm down and fall asleep after taking my meds then I can somehow reset myself. I don't have much experience handling anxiety.
It has just been the past few years that anxiety has gotten the better of me. also my drs have my other health issues to deal with and it seems my anxiety gets the back seat priority. I have pretty bad degenerative disc problems and had spinal fusion and need more in the coming year. I have osteoporosis which makes things even worse. If all that were not enough I have cancer which honestly the last six months has just pushed me over the edge.
I will get a handle on this eventually. Covid keeps me from doing things I know would help my anxiety. Not being able to get out makes me upset. I try to help others also. I lost my volunteer job at the soup kitchen which was a great help to me also. I felt like I was helping others so much.
Thank you all for you help and kindness.
Post Edited (oceanfisher58) : 12/25/2020 5:05:56 PM (GMT-7)