Hi Rich, I just wanted you to know that so many other people feel the same way as you sometimes. If you like to keep busy you might like to look at a couple of these creative ways to be an artist! There is really a minimal amount of material to buy and you might discover you have hidden talents!https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kwithjgtu8s
painting using steel woolhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=veis5reksqg
painting using a brush and other itemshttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vjpbbhfnats&t=38s
painting an autumn forest (easy)
I hope you're doing well!