Posted 11/28/2021 4:25 PM (GMT -7)
Don't worry that you have not cried. Sometimes grief by weeping does not happen until something else brings it on. And the "regret" part - don't do that to yourself, be kinder. You and he know what you had. In the realm that he is now, he is "with" you, and he understands. It's obvious in your message that you and he shared a deep bond. That bond still continues.
I am sorry for your loss.