well on friday i went to the dr to have some blood work done, he wants to check my hormone levels, thyroid(again), seratonin, and do a 24hr urine. when i got there i was so upset that they couldn't do the tests, i now have to go monday morning. anyways friday all day long i had this uncontrollable crying couldn't stop for nothing thought i was just totally losing it, so the dr sent me to see a counselor and i talked to her for awhile and she will start seeing me in october every 2 weeks. i don't know what's wrong with me i don't really feel like i'm deppressed i just don't know.i was switched from cymbalta to lexapro wed and it seems to be going okay. then yesterday i get my period!!! that's the second time this month!! maybe this is a hormonal imbalance i have no idea i just am so sick of this i could just scream!!
my husband doesn't understand what's going on he told me he looks at me and feels like i've given up on myself and everything around me. he is concerned about
my weight because i have lost 30 pounds and i don't really eat anymore unless someone makes me or i force myself, he told me last night that i am probably malnutritioned and i can't afford to lose any more weight that i already look to thin. i am not doing any of this on purpose, i want to be the wife and mother i was before i'm just stuck in a place right now that's hard for me to get out of. i feel like i'm such a burden at times, i look around and see that i am making my family suffer i don't want that i soo don't want that, i love them so much and i don't want this to effect their lives. thank you for listening,