Health Anxiety - Please help... I'm so scared
I've suffered with health anxiety since I was about
10 years old. My first 'illness' was HIV. I was convinced that I had somehow contracted it and that I was dying. Thirteen years on and my anxiety had become manageable... episodes that came and went with the negative test results. Recently due to a HUGE amount of stress i've become really unwell again but this time it's all about
my teeth. I'm petrified that my teeth are falling out. I went to the dentist a few weeks ago with unusual feelings in my mouth. He told me that there was nothing wrong and that I should forget about
it. The feeling got worse and worse until I convinced myself that all my teeth were going to fall out. I poked them with my tongue and constantly checked in the mirror every hour or so to make sure they weren't even more wobbly. I stopped believing that there was nothing wrong and went to get a second opinion from a better dentist who told me that i'd been grinding my teeth so badly that i'd loosened them but that they were definitely not going to fall out and that I needed to reduce my stress. I accepted that and felt better for a day. Then I must have had a really good grind in my sleep because I woke up and they were sore and a little looser than the day before... of course I kept poking to make sure they weren't falling out and they seemed to get worse. I'm petrified that my anxiety is going to make my teeth fall out... and oddly, i'm more petrified of that than I ever have been about
cancer, HIV or kidney failure. I think because the symptoms are so obvious and they're getting worse (because i'm making them worse) and there is no test result that can tell me that i'm okay, i'm just feeding it and feeding it.
I have a doctors appointment tonight and another dentists appointment on Wednesday. This is getting so rediculous... i'm so petrified all the time. I feel like i'm trapped in my worst nightmare 24/7 and i'm really starting to scare my fiance who has just been so very wonderful. I haven't eaten in four days because i'm so scared of the feeling of pressure against my teeth. I'm not sleeping because i'm petrified that i'll grind my teeth. I'm wearing a mouth guard to bed but it doesn't seem to help... unless it is helping but all the 'checking' i'm doing is making it worse...
Please just tell me that i'm not alone and that it does get better...Just a minor edit see rule 1 on the guidelines. Any questions please contact me.
Post Edited By Moderator (normalsnofun) : 9/25/2006 8:55:12 AM (GMT-6)