I should know what a panic attack is by now, but tonight I've had a doosy.
Besides all the med changes, I've been working like crazy getting the house together to sell it, looking at what we'll do then, just got power back on after a blackout of 28hrs so dealing with the insurance company over food spoilage, running around today, have a child going to hospital tomorrow, and worrying about
juggling the other 2 along with them carrying on because they're so bored.... so a lot's been stressful.
I started feeling funny so went to have a shower felt frozen like when you have a fever, numb fingers and very scared. I was then scarying myself thinking maybe I've blanked out and hurt my kids or something. I got out the shower and took some valium and things started to calm down, it's now midnight and I just feel so scared and alone. The kids are ok and I use to worry about
what would happen to them if I died now my fears turned it against me by making me fear (to the point of panic) that I'm the one that's will hurt them.
I hate panic so much. I'm still early days into my new med so I can't judge yet how effective it is. I know I'm under a lot of stress, enough easily to cause a panic attack but anxiety always wants you to think it's more.