Please don't worry about
what you did to be edited. Sometimes mods have to edit because of the rules (and I know when we first start posting here we're all so eager to get help that we sometimes by-pass those!). I'm a mod over on the bipolar board and I do sometimes have to edit because of one rule or another, but it's never something I want anyone to feel bad about
-- just a reminder of the rule and then getting on with the help! That's all it was here too hun. :)
Rule #1 is this one:
"1. No discussion of any illegal activity or threats of violence. (ie. illicit drug use, including medical marijuana use, threats of suicide or self-injury, or threatened or intended physical harm). Discussions of suicide or self-harm that are deemed negative and therefore potentially injurious to others are also not permitted."
It's there both as a legal safeguard for HW, but also so that the site's emphasis remains on self-healing rather than self-damage. -- That's what we all want for you. :)
I think people are suggesting counselling because whatever you did, and the way you've thought about
it since, has clearly had a big impact on you in that it's given you panic attacks. Therapy suggestions are never made because we think there's something wrong or bad about
you. Heck, I'm a pretty normal uni lecturer and I've had a good few sessions of counselling in my time -- really helps to take time out to focus on what's bothering me and to talk it through with someone confidentially and non-judgementally. :) I know sometimes the old counselling "stigma" seems to persist, but you'd be amazed how many perfectly "normal" people go this route -- and how much it can help!
Very best wishes,
People are not like fish: they do not work well battered.
When I'm not in my right mind, my left mind gets pretty crowded...
Co-Moderator, Bipolar Forum