My trigger is when I start thinking of EVERYTHING...what I have to do, what I haven't done, our money situation, this house we are in (way too small), feeling cramped in and no way to get out, feeling cornered by someone or something, talking about
my deepest most private thoughts (I don't do this, ever), it all seems to pile down on me at once and then I freak out. Crying, shaking, screaming, can't see, blurry vision, don't know what to do next. I get my stomach in my throat and butterflies. Just a feeling of pure dread. It's horrible. I had to go to my neuro's office about
1 1/2 months ago for an emergency visit because I couldn't work my way out of it, usually my meds will work. I happened to be driving, had a terrible migraine that nothing would touch and had my hubby and two step-kids in the car. I pulled over and ran out of the car. Scared them all to death. Scared me even worse. I think that was the worst one I've ever had.
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference."
DX: ankylosing spondylitis, periferal neuropathy, chronic migraines/headaches, depression/panic attacks, hypothyroidism, hypoglycemia, orthostatic hypotension, sleep apnea
RX: synthroid, estradiol, lexapro, xanax, proamatine, inderal la, neurontin, torfanil pm, celebrex, aspirin, relpax, phenergan, esgic plus
Surgeries: hysterectomy 1997, tonsillectomy 2001, deviated septum 2005, cataracts (both eyes) 2006