I'm having a really hard time : ( You see I was diagnosed with Panic Disorder back in 1998. I had it way before then, but never knew what it was or that there was a name to all of the feeling that I was having. Anyhow, I went through therapy and over a period of about a year and a half the panic attacks were gone and I only had anxiety in certain situations. I was living wonderfully for about the last 5 years.
Well, over the month of Sept. I was starting to have little panic attacks and started thinking that everything I felt was either heart disease, cancer, or something else awful! My husband started to notice that I was doing this again as did I. I went to my Dr. a week ago and he put me on Zoloft. Well, I had never and still hate the thought of taking meds (part of my anxiety) but I took it as he said, because i just felt like I couldn't fight this anymore...
I took the Zoloft 50 mg for 3 days and then had a bad reaction to it. I started to feel really cold inside my body, feel very faint, etc. etc. I ended up in the ER and the Dr. said that I was having a reaction to the meds and to stop them and that I shouldn't take anymore SSRI's. So... he gives me a shot of Ativan and I calmed down. My husband took me home and the next night I still felt really sick and felt as if my blood pressure was high. I went back to the ER and sure enough my bp was high 201/100. Whew... I was told to sit and relax and all I could do was think that I was about to have a stroke! They gave me valium and a low dose of pb meds and sent me home again. Two days later I am BACK at the ER because I had a HORRIBLE panic attack and started to feel the whole right side of my body go numb! This time I got a really nice Dr. that took the time to sit and talk with me... He upped my bp meds to 50 mg. and said that had a panic attack and that I sounded as if I was depressed.
(Mind you, my Dad has been living with us for 4 years, has been on the liver transplant list for 8 years and was just DENIED a transplant!) So... yes I have been under a lot of stress!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't want to lose my Dad, he is only 54! I'm 31 years old by the way...
There is a lot more to the story... but as I sit here I am riddled with the sweats, head shocks, and just flat out panic...
I've never been depressed before and it's so new to me... Does anyone ever get the feeling as if they are going to throw up, feel very faint, get sweaty feet and palms, cold flashes, hot flashes, and mainly i keep getting chest pains and it feels as though it's like little shocks and then it goes away but right after it happens i get a boost of adrenline like...and just feel like no matter how many times dr.s tell you that you are panicing you FEEL as though you really do have like heart failure or some disease?
I hate that this is back... I look at myself in the mirror and just cry! I want to feel myself again... I had to have my husband go grocery shopping with me last night i felt so helpless! I started to think that I was going to pass out and die! : (
I go see my regular dr. on Thursday!
I keep praying and praying to have my old life back... it's only been a week and though it feels like it's been so much longer!
Do anyone of you ever chat? It would be nice to talk that way once in a while...?
Take care everyone.