thank you both for saying so. i have put up with alot of stuff in my life and you guys know me and what a fuss budget i can be about
everythnig. i was hoping when i saw some satisfaction in my life that i would be in a happier place than i am now. i want this to work. and i am determined to beat this and make this work.
i have no other choices left which is why i am trying so hard for the first time in my life i will have the house of my dreams and maybe it isnt a mansion or anything too glamours but it is my home where i can be comfortable and maybe make some friends. i desperatley need somefriends in my life.
i feel if i have a place i can offer a person a cup of joe and meet new folks on the block i can make friends which will help me out of my depression and negativity.
normally i am not a negative person only since this crash it has come i wanna be the person who i once was gracious and loving and plan all the holidays again and dress up my home with hoildays lights and halloween and more to cheer me up.
if feel this would go a long way to helping me recover.
thanks you all. hugs