Yesterday was awful. I was feeling okay at first, and then BAM. I go to Target. (deathly afraid of Target for some reason mainly cuz I have had a lot of panic attacks in the past there) Well I wanted to go alone, I was sick of having someone go with me. I got out of my car and walked towards the doors. Jelly legs, suddenly the archway to Target looked too big, I forced myself in, I grab a cart and I just wanted to run out of the store right then.
I can make it to the dog food. I thought. Starting to hypervenalate, breathing too fast, not enough, fingers and arms are tingling and I feel like I can't push the cart another step. I make it to the dog food and manage to make it through Target but continually panic til I reach the register and try to make small talk with the cashier. I made it but it was absolutely miserable.
I've been feeling strange all day today but that always happens after an attack.
I thought I was getting through this just perfect, I haven't felt panicy in two weeks but these past two days it's like a whirlwind all over again of panic and anxiety and I am just so sick of this disease.
God help me.
I'm so stressed out and am trying to stay positive but it so hard to be.