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Date Joined Sep 2006
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   Posted 10/10/2006 2:12 AM (GMT -6)   
After hearing yeaterday morning that I finally had a spot for the anxiety CBT I went down hill extrememly fast.

It took a few calls to the pdocs receptionist to get it through to her how bad I am and that Thursday would be too late for an appointment (especially since I haven't seen her in the month since she put me through a major cold turkey)

The pdoc eventually rang back and told me to double my avanza to 60mg last night and to keep taking the valium (which wasn't helping anyway). My best friend came over and she's had 18yrs experience as an ambo and she took me down to hospital as she could see what a mess I was. After waiting hours I had a 20 minute interview and sent home.

Today I saw my pdoc and now I have to not take avanza anymore but start on Rivotril tonight then twice daily and stsrt on efexor-XR in the morning.

Am I the only one that feels like a guinea pig living in a world of pain? We asked about going into a psych ward to sort it all out as a voluntry patient but no one wants to help. They basically told my friend until I go to do damage to myself they're not interested and she said to them but that's exactly what we don't want to happen.

To top it all off it's 'Mental Health Week' overhere. I'm going to try to use my anger and redirect to the newspaper and share the disgusting way mentally ill patients are treated. The politicians love to get their mugs in the papers congratulating themselves on how they've created all these things for unwell people well I'm here to shout it out "That's a load of bull!" rant over and prayers that these new drugs work.


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   Posted 10/10/2006 2:57 AM (GMT -6)   
Guinea pig? Oh yeah, because they're not sure what will work right exactly for ya and it may take a lotta meds to work for you... I dunno...

I know what you're going through. The doc wants to up my Lexepro to 20 MGS but it is just too much I think at this point. I'm on Ativan as well everyday and the doc doesn't want me to take it anymore but I feel like I need it because the Lexepro doesn't seem to be working very well but maybe it is I don't know.

To be honest, anxiety/panic is still not researched enough I think. I think there's more to it, and docs don't have enough answers. "Here's a pill, talk to somebody, off ye go" I guess is how they figure it.

"Maybe that'll work for her," yeah but I still feel panicy and such.

We should be at a point in science to just know what will work for our bodies (doctors that is) but it just doesn't seem that way. I just don't think enough time and money is spent on researching this debilitating disorder. I wish more time was spent on it.

Maybe we'd all feel a little better everyday then.

But at least we're not living back in the 50's where'd ya just be locked up and given a bunch of antipsychotics and then when those make you more crazy you're just considered hopeless.

At least we have something. And at least it is recognized as a true disease/disorder.

"Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars."

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Date Joined Jan 2005
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   Posted 10/10/2006 4:35 AM (GMT -6)   
Angel .......I have been a guinea pig for many yrs with one condition I have which is from the crohns BUT made worse with stress and anxiety.......
It is called Pyoderma Gangrenosum ....
you can literally see my skin being eaten away from inside out
It is horrid and very painful ........
Immune disorder plus it is a rare "Gift" of the crohns as well
I saw doc after doc some of Ontario's top specialist in the Dermatologist feild no one knew what it was and I was tx with Vancomycin (strong antibiotic) IV for months at a time
Now I am paying for that I have lost practically almost all my hearing in left ear and the doc I have now does research with me or we do it on own and compare
He works with me and will rarely put me on IV meds only when we are way outta control and sore is to the bone /muscle .........or he knows I am headed into very sressful situation
After the muck up with Thanksgiving I have 2 small sores starting already and crohns is acting up as well ......
Your question YES I have been a guinea pig and lost much because of it
I refuse to be that anymore and thankfully this doc does not make me one
Go for it put it in Newspaper make sure all your facts are right and they can be verified
NOT saying you are not being honest but I know firsthand ( many articles lol to Editor ) that they will have to verify especially when going after a politician and the "System"
Please keep us posted and I am so sorry you have been treated this way I know how you feel
Take care
BTW I totally agree more study and research into A/P is ABSOLUTELY needed
It is REAL and not in our HEADS

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Post Edited (Howlyncat) : 10/10/2006 3:38:51 AM (GMT-6)

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