It is 1:15 am my time. Here I am, still awake. I've taken my sleep meds too. Still awake. My mind is racing, I can't shut it off. All the things I have to do tomorrow, school work (math yuck), this new stuff I'm trying to get my head around, money issues and the fact that my hubby is so worried about me that he is both physically and mentally exhausted. He internalizes everything. He think this will make me worry less if he doesn't discuss these worries with me. But I need to talk about it, so I'm here. I know he'll come around, he always does. He is the best guy in the whole world. I don't know how I lucked out. One woman's loss is anothers gain. I don't know how his ex couldn't see what a guy he really is. He is my lobster! I know I'm rambling and changing subjects mid thought. It just goes and goes. My family has to ask me which conversation I'm talking about. I can bounce from on subject to the other with no problems and no oo one follows well. I guess I'm still not saying much of anything. Sorry. I'll be done now.
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference."
DX: ankylosing spondylitis, periferal neuropathy, chronic migraines/headaches, depression/panic attacks, hypothyroidism, hypoglycemia, orthostatic hypotension, sleep apnea
RX: synthroid, estradiol, cymbalta, xanax, proamatine, inderal la, neurontin, torfanil pm, celebrex, sonata, aspirin, relpax, phenergan, esgic plus
Surgeries: hysterectomy 1997, tonsillectomy 2001, deviated septum 2005, cataracts (both eyes) 2006