Poem... "My Reality".... so beware (as janet would say hehe)

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   Posted 10/13/2006 4:23 PM (GMT -6)   
Burning lump in my throat
as I try to prevent the tears from welling.
I just pretend and I exist;
I put that sweet smile on my face.
"No, everything's okay,"
I reassure others.
Words so twisted
like my thought pattern
as I panic and worry.
Am I ill?
Am I dieing?
Why do I feel so hot,
shaky, dizzy, fearful,
and so I curl into a ball.
Tears flood navy sheets.
I lie there in my damp,
isolated world.
Wanting to escape,
wanting to be carefree.
Desiring things not attainable
through money;
Only through
sheer determination.
Can I attain such an existance?
~Twiggygal sad
"Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars."

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   Posted 10/13/2006 5:33 PM (GMT -6)   
Nicely put TG. Thankx for sharing.

...I dont want the world to see me, 'cause I dont think that they'd understand
When everythings made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am..."
--Goo Goo Dolls

"Those who are different change the world,
Those who are the same keep it that way."

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   Posted 10/13/2006 5:40 PM (GMT -6)   
I like that much twiggy, very well done. Thank you for sharing this with us, it helps to get those feelings on paper i believe.
" Dwell not on the past. Use it to illustrate a point, then leave it behind. Nothing really matters except what you do now, in this instant of time. From this moment onward you can be an entirely different person, filled with love and understanding, ready with an outstretched hand, uplifted and positive in every thought and deed."
Eileen Caddy

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   Posted 10/13/2006 5:51 PM (GMT -6)   
Your poem tells me that you are a fighter and that you WILL get better. You are so obviously a strong person! I agree with shell. Keep on writing! It helps! I know!!! Good job! :)
Yesterday's dead
Tomorrow's unknown
Today is here
And soon will be gone.
Use it wisely
Before it's too late
Remember to love
And forget to hate.

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   Posted 10/13/2006 7:13 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey TG,
Great poem. Very vivid words. I could totally relate. Wishing you happy days!
Life's a journey, not a destination ~ Aerosmith
A good friend is one who thinks you're a good egg even though you're half-cracked.

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   Posted 10/13/2006 7:19 PM (GMT -6)   
Loved it Twiggy! Thanks for sharing.

Take Care,
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   Posted 10/14/2006 11:32 AM (GMT -6)   

Hey Twiggygal,

That was awsome made me take a real good look at myself. Hang in there hun we all know these feelings will pass only to come back but we can deal with them.

I have an illness, My illness don't have me.


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   Posted 10/15/2006 11:18 AM (GMT -6)   
Great Poem, hope you feel better soon. Thanks for sharing.
Judy smurf

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   Posted 10/15/2006 11:43 AM (GMT -6)   
That is wonderfully written and could really relate
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