I understand agoraphobia, I dealth with it seriously for 1 year and up and down for 7 more after that. I can't tell you why but I have always been able to face my fears and work through them. I never let the fears within me keep me at home even though walking out the door was tremendously difficult. I am well now and agoraphobia free for the last 20 years. I did it by simply not letting it have the ultimate power over me. I got up every day, I went to work, I did what I had to do and I looked inside for honesty with myself about
what I was afraid of, what was causing the fear and not letting it get the best of me.
Funny story - After the worse year of my life, the year that agoraphobia hit me hard, my husband and I moved to Denver, CO. We were only going to be there for 5 months so I got a job in a daycare and didn't worry about
career goals. One day we were going to take a field trip with the kids. We needed to transport some of the kids by private car because the van wasn't big enough and I was the only employee that had the right kind of insurance. One of the issues that I had was driving on the freeway. I don't know why but after 7 years of never having a problem on the freeway, it terrified me. We were going to a skating wrink with the kids and in my mind I though okay, right down the street. Imagine my surprise/panic/terror as I followed the company van onto the freeway in Denver! I was terrified but made it through just fine and I don't even think the kids knew anything about
it. I am sure that reading this story is not as funny as that day was in my head. In my mind I always imagine that trip as a keystone cops sort of affair. It just goes to show you that life jumps up at you at any moment and we all have to be ready to roll with it.
I don't know what the "switch" is that you need to flip, that only you will know. I can tell you that if you keep making steps everyday, even small ones, you will be alright. This is a great place to come. Keep posting.
Walk in harmony