Hi everyone, I'm going through some extreme depression with extreme anxiety. I wake up in the morning and immediately feel anxiety. I feel like my heart is being squeezed and I can't stop the racing thoughts and I can't eat, which is new for me because I usually have depression and all I want to do is eat. I had a PCP who prescribed me xanax as needed. My next doc did too. I never abused it. Then, I went to my PCP to discuss my disability paperwork and told him how awful things were and that I thought about ending it all. I guess that got documented because he left the practice (shortly thereafter) and the doc who took his place would not refill my xanax. He knew that I was under a psyche care and said for them to do it. Well, she told me that she does NOT prescribe benzoidiapines (sp?). I was in a MAJOR DEPRESSION - almost checking myself into a hospital and she is prescribing me new anti-depressants till we find the right one/combo and anti-mania drugs for the anxiety. I do not have bi-polar and these drugs are not the same as xanax. I had horrible side effects with them -- zombie with glassy eyes and tiny pupils. Has anyone experienced this? What do I do w/o looking like a drug seeker. This makes me so mad because I am suffering so bad and need help.
DX: chronic migraine, cervical degeneration, depression/anxiety
RX: Wellbutrin, Lexapro, Soma, Immitrex
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