Thanks everyone for responding!
I woke up and all I could do was think about yesterday's visit to the clinic. I keep trying to tell myself to not dwell on it...don't worry...wait and see. But GAD sufferers are notorious for not being able to turn off the worrisome thinking! Right before I walked out the door, the case manager says, "Don't worry!" She might as well have told me to not breathe!!! Anyhow, it's not too suprising about the clinic's new rule about the benzos...for those that can recall me talking about my horrible experience early this year with my longtime pdoc-how he wouldn't give me any extra xanax even though I was losing loads of weight due to IBS and no appetite at all (lost about 20 lbs in a short time) and was having suicidal thoughts cuz of EXTREME anxiety-well, I found out that he's the medical director over the clinic now! Great, just great!
Hopefulm, you asked their reasoning about benzos...it went something like this: Even though they are excellent for short-term use, when taken for a long time, the body craves them, even if you aren't necessarily abusing them. Since they have such a short half-life, your feelings get level but then as the med leaves the body, your feelings start to fall (kinf of like a rollercoaster) until your next dose. As time goes on, your feelings of anxiety can become exxagerated because your body wants the drug and it takes more of the drug to do it's job, etc., etc., etc.....blah, blah, blah. I may not have explained that very well, but no matter, cuz they've made up their minds and so there's nothing I can do about it. My only comfort is that IF things get too bad, my friend goes to a pdoc that prescribes her klonipin. It would be expensive to go to another pdoc as no pdocs in this town takes medicaid except for at the clinic. But at least her pdoc is cheaper than the one I'd just tried before going back to the clinic! Or MAYBE my GP would have pity on me if I cried hard enough (and it wouldn't be no act either!)
I am on 25mg of paxil cr. I was on 12.5mg for a month and have now been on 25mg for 10 days. I do think that it is starting to help me. I'm just chomping at the bit until it totally kicks in...sigh!!! Thank you for the info! It is very encouraging!
I can ALWAYS count on you thru thick and thin! You ARE a darling and don't you ever think otherwise! Believe me, I AM going to take your advice!!! I hope you are feeling better. I was sorry about your "meltdown"...I don't know what I'd do if I were in the same situation...you are an inspiration. Truly! Luv Ya!!!
Hugs to all!!!
Today is here
And soon will be gone.
Use it wisely
Before it's too late
Remember to love
And forget to hate.