hi there mrsafraid, i like the name, i feel that way alot. Im sorry its such a rough time, but you can go to your profile and add your email address, its safer than just posting in on here, my email addy and messenger is on mine, and would be happy to chat with you anytime i can. WELCOME to hw, there are many great ppl here with support and we stick together. I hope you feel better soon, are you on any meds? What does the doc say???? my thoughts are with ya, take care and keep posting, you are in a great place for support.
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