hi angela, we do all do this to ourselves, i try to keep from looking things up, i ask on here instead ;) just so i dont make myself crazy. Im sorry you feel bad, if your real scared, ask your doc again, it cant hurt, it can only ease your anxiety. Do some breathing exercises and try to keep your mind busy on something else, i know thats easier said than done, but i hope you feel better soon, take care and keep posting,t hat always helps too :)
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