I've always struggled with anxiety when going through a difficult period.... But I've been lucky in that, otherwise, anxiety is not a daily experience for me. However, I've been under a lot of stress lately....and this summer went through a really traumatic period which I'm still recovering from. My girlfriend had major surgery, and while - thank goodness - she's almost fully recovered and going to be fine...it was the scariest process I've ever gone through. I've always been terrified of losing people I love (I grew up with a chronically ill mother, who is fine...but it's been scary at times). Also, my family doesn't support our relationship (it's a same sex one, and interfaith), so I had to go through this experience will little support from my family. Thank goodness for friends! I'm 26 by the way.
Anyway, ever since just before the surgery, I've been experiencing all sorts of pains....and getting anxious that my pain means I'm sick/dying....I've been going to doctors and nothing has turned up yet. I am now thinking it's more likely that my pain is caused by anxiety, but that makes me feel crazy. It really helped to find this forum and now I'm not alone in suffering from a bout of health anxiety. It's just really hard to be around my friends/lover right now, because it seems like I have new pain every day. And I imagine they think I'm crazy. Everyone's been SO supportive and non-judgmental, but I feel pretty paranoid about it lately. Every time one pain goes away, a new one seems to arrive. I'm afraid I'll always be in pain...and that I'm sick....and that no one will want to be with me because who'd want to be around someone like that?
Anyway. Finding this message board was really a lifesaver. I keep doing internet searches about the pain I'm having, but none of the diseases sound quite right...except for health anxiety!! Oh - did I mention I'm in publich health school and therefore have to learn about all sorts of awful diseases in some of my required classes? Ugh. (My focus is health promotion/social medicine related, so the stuff I came her to learn is not scary......but I have to take the core classes which include the scary stuff).
Sorry this post is so long - I guess I had a lot on my mind.