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   Posted 10/26/2006 12:56 PM (GMT -6)   
If you want to get better? I'm sitting here now pondering that question. I can't seem to stop myself from causing myself more anxiety and stress. We are having a blizzard today and so I'm not at work. Instead of doing something productive, cleaning, laundry...ect...I sit here and keep checking the stock quotes on the company my husband works for, seeing if it's up or down, any news and just getting my self all worked up again with worry. I can feel it building up again all the wanting to cry, the sick feeling in the stomach, tingles all over my body. It's nuts! I feel like I am a huge nut case that can't let anything go.
I've been trying to get away from this darn thing, but keep coming back....just to check.... my head is hurting now too.
I just don't know what to do anymore and feel like I will be like this forever and I sure don't want to live like this.

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   Posted 10/26/2006 1:43 PM (GMT -6)   
I want to get better, I am getting better. I force myself to do small things each day that may make me feel slightly uncomfortable to feel more comfortable when I have to face the situation again.

Are you on meds at all?

I get all worked up when I think about things too much as well, so busy yourself with something; like you said; laundry or cleaning or painting or reading a book.

Anything to take your mind off of feeling anxious. Maybe turn on the radio while you clean and sing to every song even if you don't know the words? hehe

"Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars."

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   Posted 10/26/2006 1:54 PM (GMT -6)   

do some cleaning and tidy things up, very theraputic, also listen to favourite music

make a list of things to do and do them 1 at a time

recovered former longtime anxiety and panic attack sufferer and helper of other sufferers  but no training or  qualifications in medicine or psychology, any remarks that may be taken as advice must be confirmed with doctor or other health professional

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   Posted 10/26/2006 2:10 PM (GMT -6)   
I do better when my mind is busy, that's alot of the reason I got the part time job, and it has helped. It's just times like this when I'm at home and can't stay focused that I really let my thoughts take over. I need to go finish my kitchen, the repair guy will hopefully be coming tomorrow to fix my dishwasher!

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   Posted 10/26/2006 2:33 PM (GMT -6)   
I have always wanted to get better and have actively sought out professionals that can help me do so. I'm doing so great and I know that I will never go backwards. I have wondered if anxiety and/or depression can become a way of life or a self-fulfilling prophecy. I think that it can but see self honesty as a way to ward that off. I am really honest with myself about how I am feeling, where that comes from and that it is okay to feel the way I feel.
Walk in harmony

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   Posted 10/26/2006 7:13 PM (GMT -6)   
I sometimes feel the same way. I am always self-talking and trying to get myself through different situations. Sometimes I get upset with myself because I know that the way my thought patterns are, (constant worry) doesn't help, and I think to myself "why are you doing this to yourself" But anxiety is like an addiction because the way it takes hold of you and tries to rule you. It takes time, and lots of ups and downs, but we can get through it. I try to keep busy too, but sometimes that's more harm than good for me because I over do it.

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   Posted 10/26/2006 7:52 PM (GMT -6)   
Try to find something that you can put your mind to.  For me when I've got down time I do SUDOKU puzzles or watch a favorite dvd.  I've got to keep my mind busy or I can start the what ifs and once started its hard for me to stop.  I know that when I work out my thought patterns tend to stay more upbeat, maybe you could do some type of excersice.  When you can't go out theres a video called "Walking away the pounds" thats kind of fun to do and it starts out pretty slow and you move up on your own schedule.

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   Posted 10/26/2006 11:11 PM (GMT -6)   
Mainly, I'm just tired. I do get to the point where my head can't think about it anymore...for awhile. Every senerio (sp) has been played out one way or another. I just don't feel right talking to my husband about how some of my thoughts are and he knows I'm upset, then he gets upset when I can't or won't talk to him. Poor guy. He would do anything for me and I'm doing nothing but dragging him down with me.

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   Posted 10/27/2006 3:03 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi i have had really bad anxiety after having my daugther i found that snuggleing up on sofa with my 16week old daughter watching my favorite dvd's (of friends) helped me so much i find that being busy tends to keep my mind off things take care xx mel :)

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   Posted 10/27/2006 7:34 AM (GMT -6)   
There's a verse in the bible that says, "so a man thinketh so is he". Those negative thoughts will come but always combat it with a positive. Dont beat yourself up for it, handle one thought and one day at a time.

Any progress is better than no progress. You can do it, you just have to BELIEVE you can overcome!

Blessings :-)

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   Posted 10/27/2006 8:51 AM (GMT -6)   
Part of me wants to be negative, cuz then when something happens, I'll be more prepared for it...silly I know. I just feel like if I relax and let things go that I will get side swiped with something and wonder why in the heck did I think this would all be ok. I know I'm causing alot of my own problems by thinking this.
Some days are ok, but then the next day I feel like I can't be thinking that it's all going to work out, then my mind starts in again about what all will go wrong.

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   Posted 10/27/2006 8:53 AM (GMT -6)   
I can so relate
I have a condition called Pyoderma Gangrenosum which is my body ( blood) autoimmune fighting itself esopecially when stressed out or anxiety is really high
I will break out into small sores that I can literally watch grow
I almost had to have finger amputated last yr from this DD it also has to do with crohns but the A/P set it off everytime
and I get so angry at self because it is so bleeding painful have to have IV's and major strong Opiates for this and I KNOW that letting self worry and getting stressed will do this yet I dont or cant stop self all the time
It is very hard on daughter and hubby to see me like this I will ask Normal to post some pics tomorrow so you get an idea of what I am talking about
A/P will get you anyway it can and it will keep you down if you let it
I am trying more and more different ways to cope and I too tell self for it to Go away and leave me alone
I now do meditation relaxation tech breathing and CBT to help with this
I dont want to be like this I have dealt with theses sores now since 3 mths after hysterectomy so many yrs
Wishing you all a better day and less A/P
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   Posted 10/27/2006 9:35 AM (GMT -6)   
Cat, odd you should mention the hyster part. I too noticed that not too long after my hyster(kept ovaries) that i got some strange bumps(pimple like) under my arm pit. It started out with about two, they never grew for about two months then all the sudden this month, they grew to like a blister and i had to pop em, after i popped em, one or two more would pop up. I had my hyster 4months ago, and that was the first thing that came to my mind, that is was hormone realted. My neighbor also gets these under her arms and says that she's been to the dr. for it and he just said they're clogged pores. It's not life threatening but very annoying.

Post Edited (I_willconquer) : 10/27/2006 8:42:16 AM (GMT-6)

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   Posted 10/27/2006 11:08 AM (GMT -6)   
Yes I will post Lyns pics for her as soon as she gets them to me.

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