Dragging myself down

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   Posted 10/28/2006 5:09 PM (GMT -6)   
Why is it, when I'm actually having a pretty good day, I keep telling myself it won't last? I am doing ok today, but all I can think about is how this won't last and I'll be right back where I was. My husband and I went birthday shopping for our oldest, we had lunch out, and I even got a few new clothes. All in all a nice afternoon. But that whole time in the back of my mind, I keep hearing all the down thoughts, the doom and gloom and I keep trying to push it back. Pretty much, I'm just waiting for the anxiety and depression to come back. Why can't I just be happy!

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   Posted 10/28/2006 6:51 PM (GMT -6)   
That is a tough one Suzy. I do that too. I think it just is part of the disorder. Anxiety and depression are disorders that can take over ones life, IF THEY LET IT. I feel like we grow 'used' to the A/P and eventually it is almost as if it is a 'normal' part of our lives. So when we don't experience it we immediately begin to think that something is wrong. Having grown accustomed to struggling on a daily basis we have a tough time when we realize... 'Hey! What is going on? I am happy, I am not anxious, depressed! Surely this won't last!' Well this is just the A/P taking over once again. It is really hard but you have to just try to not even focus on the fact that you're having a good day - thus allowing yourself to doubt the reality of it. You're not alone! Good luck and keep up the fight! Enjoy your life, your family and kick the anxiety and depression to the curb when they try to take over again! God bless...    Idie

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   Posted 10/29/2006 12:28 AM (GMT -6)   
I am trying to just enjoy the day. Went to the karate center with my kids, it was a black belt cereamonie (totallly spelled that wrong), it was nice seeing some of my friends kids get their black belts. (two of my kids got theres six months ago) So I hung around there for a bit talking with everyone. I don't know what Sunday will bring, but I'll take it as it comes. Thanks for the responce Idie, I really don't want this anxiety and depression to become the "normal" me.

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   Posted 10/29/2006 1:10 AM (GMT -6)   
I know what you mean about the little negative thoughts that follow you round..good grief it sooo annoying!
One thing I have learned is that it doesn't happen all the time..thank goodness..sigh....so when I catch myself being happy and not dwelling on the 'what ifs' I give myself some well earned praise!
I have found the book 'Living with IT' by Bev Aisbett a brilliant source of information and a light hearted view of Panic Attacks..I would recommend it to anyone..
Think happy thoughts.


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   Posted 10/29/2006 7:21 AM (GMT -6)   
I will look for it Maree, thanks. This morning I can feel the anxiety builing in my chest, but I'm trying to refocus and move on. I go to the doc tomorrow, early at least. I'll be glad to get that done.

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   Posted 10/29/2006 3:12 PM (GMT -6)   
I know this feeling oh so well and it is anticapatory anxiety IMO for me at least
Start doing opposite thinking ways and that may just work
I do and it does work at times '
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   Posted 10/30/2006 10:20 PM (GMT -6)   
oh do i know this feeling all to well. I felt that way just today actually. I was at work, and thought to myself "wow I haven't had that impending doom feeling today" and soon enough, there it was. It's almost like if I feel relaxed it's such a foreign feeling to me that I need to feel that anxious feeling again. It's about all I know. I'm sure others can relate. You are definitely not alone.
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