Me too Janet and Twiggy-
I was never the popular girl in school. I had lots of friends and was in the pepclub and an officer, but the truth is, it was a lame group. I never had the 'cool' clothes and the popular girls and guys never gave me a second glance. I don't understand how people can be so mean. If they only knew what they were missing out on by being my friend. I'm a nice, caring, giving person. I'd give the shirt off my back to almost anyone. I donate things all of the time to our church for the less fortunate because we are less fortunate right now too. I have a huge pile of clothing I'm giving away, a couple pieces have never been worn.
I guess my point is, yes, kids are mean and cruel. My nephew is autistic, he has Aspberger's Syndrome, little geek. He is 8 yrs old, reads on almost my level, knew how to count by age 1, knew all his colors by 18 months, can do math on a 6th grade level, knows all there is to know about cars, can pick out the make, model and year of almost any vehicle by site, before he gets close enough to read it. He has very poor social skills and acts out to the point of horrible melt downs. He's broken metal door handles, thrown things. He's getting better. They are trying to integrate him into regular classes and he'll be there by next year, I hope. He has the social skills of about a 4 or 5 yr old. He's just starting to understand jokes, can't stand to be teased at all. I have to give him squeaky kisses on both cheeks and pick him up when I see him. This is our routine. He loves it. He gets made fun of all the time. He even had one little brat break his glasses.
Kids are mean and I wish we could all know why. But a wise man and woman, my parents, told me that if you hold a grudge and hang onto it, it's only hurting you. The other person doesn't know that they are still doing it. They've probably forgotten it by now. Don't let them keep hurting you. It's poison.
I'm good at giving advise and need to learn to take my own. I still wish a swarm of bees would attack my ex. He's allergic. I still carry around the hatred for him and wish bad things on him all of the time, not just bees. It's only hurting me. But I don't know how to let it go. I'm sure you don't either. I'm going to talk to my counselor about it. Maybe that will bring some closer and help me move slowly out of this void I'm trapped in.
I hope I've helped a little. Janet, just know that even though I haven't seen you 'physically', I have seen you 'spiritually'. You are a beautiful woman to me. You have a brightness about you that shines through your words and thoughts. I know you've helped me alot, just my knowing you here. I don't need to see physical when all that really counts is the spirit inside you, inside all of us.
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference."
DX: ankylosing spondylitis, periferal neuropathy, chronic migraines/headaches, depression/panic attacks, bi-polar, hypothyroidism, hypoglycemia, orthostatic hypotension, sleep apnea
RX: synthroid, estradiol, cymbalta, xanax, geodon, lamictal, inderal la, torfanil pm, celebrex, sonata, aspirin, relpax, phenergan, esgic plus
Surgeries: hysterectomy 1997, tonsillectomy 2001, deviated septum 2005, cataracts (both eyes) 2006