Xanax will calm you down... trust me... it's a benzo... similar to the benzo I take called Ativan.
You sound like you have "derealization/depersonalization" which is commoon with the anxiety/panic disease.
Many of us suffer from that and the Xanax helps that a bit too. The Ativan helps me with it. It's a very very common symptom with anxiety.
"Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars."
DX: Panic Disorder, Depression, TMJ (Temporomandibular Joint Disorder), Chronic Migraines
RX: Ativan/Lorazapam (1 MG a day), Lexapro (15 MG a day), Tylonel for the TMJ and Migraines