Posted 11/3/2006 11:10 AM (GMT -6)
I was listening to some oldies yesterday and they made me start thinking of my sister. My sister and I rarely talk or see each other, although we live in the same town. Mom and I have both tried to keep in touch with her by calling once in a while and mom's even dropped her a card or two. I've sent her a gift before, via ebay, and usually she will call and acknowledge our attempts to stay in touch. Anyhow, unless we happen to run into her at a store or something like that, we never see her. I know that she's gotten mad at me thru the years cuz we don't see eye-to-eye on some things, especially as thru the years, her husband has "rubbed off on her". It's amazing how differently she sees some things now in contrast to how she was raised. Oh well. I'm not saying she's become a "bad" person, just so different in a lot of ways. Her hubby and I are polite to each other, but we all know that we don't really LIKE each other very much. I give him credit for being the kind of person that if mom or I needed his help, he would help us if he could and vise-a-versa. But mostly, we're like oil and water. So you can see how thru the years, we've grown further and further apart from my sister. I take responsibility for my share of it, but I won't take the brunt of it. Mom and I have tried to show her that we love her and never talked her hubby down etc. Oh well, I'm making a short story long! I wrote her a letter and this is what I said:
"I was sitting here listening to a CD of old country tunes and the song "Silver Wings" came on. I immediately thought about you. I remember you playing that song on the jukebox when we were little. Dad had taken us and mom to a bar in Millville. As he and mom sat at the table, we went to put our money in the jukebox. You were too little to read the songs and of course, you didn't want my help! So you pushed a selection, not knowing what you were choosing. Of course, it was "Silver Wings"! You always loved that song! Anyhow, it is a nice memory and I wanted to let you know that I think about you all the time, not just when the music plays...I miss you in more ways than you will probably ever know. It is sad that we never see each other or even really talk anymore. I guess that life does that to us sometimes. But I don't have to like it. I've wondered if you ever miss me and mom. I know you are very busy with work and your family responsibilities, but it would sure be nice if you could find a minute here and there to let us hear from you once in a while. We're all getting older everyday and unforeseen occurrences can befall any of us. I know that things from the past have bothered you and me. We don't always see things the same way and it can cause bad feelings. For myself, all I can say is that I love you very very much and whatever I've ever done or said that might've hurt you in any way, I am deeply sorry and hope you will forgive me. I can't go back and undo the past, but I'd love to make the present and future better! You have always had a special place in my heart and you always will as long as I'm breathing! Mom sure loves you too. We talk about you, dad, the girls and it just reminds me of how you and I used to be fairly close. Life and time can change our circumstances, but I hope they won't always be a wall between us. No matter what, you will always be my beloved little sister."
She should've gotten the letter yesterday, but I haven't heard back from her. It's possible she hasn't gotten it...I hope she will reply, cuz I do love her and life is short. I wanted to share this with my kindred spirits on the forum. I encourage you to try to make amends with anyone you may be on the outs with, cuz we never know when it may be too late. EVen if my sis doesn't respond, I'll have the comfort of knowing I tried.
Luv To All,