I get SO frustrated when people want me to go places that are TOO far for me to go.
I haven't been farther than 20 minutes from my house in probably 4 or 5 months, and people don't get it when I explain that travelling farther than that will CAUSE a panic attack. I don't WANT to have a panic attack tonight or tomorrow or the next day and situations like that seem to trigger them.
I had this situation tonight and my friend just didn't get it, and said "oh, well you're going, answer your phone in 40 minutes".
Well I'm really NOT going because I can't handle the drive or anything. And now all I'm going to do is avoid my friend's phone call because I can't handle driving too far from my 'comfort zone'.
The thought of even TRAVELLING that far is causing me to panic right now. I think I need an Ativan.
It makes me mad that people are so inconsiderate of my disorder. It's like, well, if you had panic disorder/GAD, then maybe you'd get it, but you don't, and you're being rude for not even remotely trying to work with me here.
I hate this disorder, but it's not like I chose it.
It's not like I'm using it to get out of things/events. I'd LOVE to be able to go do the things I want and travel farther and farther, but the fact is, right now I can't. I mean for two months I couldn't be farther than 10 minutes from my house, and now I can travel just about 20 minutes from my house.
I even say to people; well can't we find somewhere closer to go and do something? But they insist on always travelling farther than I'm comfortable with.
I even explain that I will have a panic attack and get anxious and will want to go to the E.R. but they don't get it. They're like, "no, you'll be fine." Oh yeah? Really? Are you a psychiatrist or a doctor? No. Then they say, "well I can pick you up." Now I understand that these people really DON'T get it, because having someone else drive makes me feel like I'm losing control because I can't drive where I want to, or escape if I need to except on foot.
How do you get someone to just "GET IT"? How does one make another understand how debilitating this panic disorder can be?
Sorry, I just really needed to vent because it's really been stressing me out lately.
I feel I'm not even CLOSE to ready to travelling outside of my comfort zone, I've already been pushing my comfort zone outward, but with baby steps.
I can't just take a leaping dive into a situation where I know I'm not ready to handle it. That wouldn't make sense.
And I know how I'll react. I will PANIC. The worst thing for me is to have a panic attack in front of someone who just doesn't get my disorder either. Then I feel really alone, and more afraid, and I want to flee; whether on foot or by calling a cab no matter where I am if I don't have my car.
Has anyone else had this problem?
I really am just furious right now, and anxious.