thanks you guys, for being so helpful, reassuring, and understanding. youre the best
anyways im here to update my condition...
it has indeed been getting worse. the number of times i look outside the curtain has increased from 'at least five' to 'more than twenty.'
and now, i found out that whenever i go into a bathroom with a shower in it, i look behind the curtain (to make sure im the only one in there) before closing the door.
and now i'm almost entirely incapable of closing my eyes to wash my face in the shower. what i do is: throw my face into the shower, wash for a couple seconds, (almost literally) jump out of the water, get the water out of my eyes with a towel, and hurriedly check the whole bathroom for anything in there.
yeah, i think i have a real problem... :/
while my mom doesn't understand whats going on in my head, she (unlike my dad) is offering suggestions to help me out. also, sometimes she stays in the next room while i'm showering, so that if i get nervous, i can knock on the wall, and she'll knock back. she doesn't like to do that much though, so it's only temporary. anyways, im going to ask the same question she is: would a see-through shower curtain help?
anyways, i cant thank you guys enough for being so nice. i really appreciate you taking me seriously...
i'll check my school for a counselor, because my parents say that there's only one psycological place in the town that treats adolescents, and we've tried that already. that's the place that treated my previous anxiety and depression... but for some reason, they don't trust that place.
thanks again!! :)
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