Except for the acid reflux (which nothing more than an annoyance), my GI believes there's absolutely nothing physically wrong with me. You may or may not recall (I've posted before) that a couple months ago I went to a teaching hospital and handed myself over to them in desperation, and since then I've had a LOT of tests. Nothing has come up. I have two more tests this week and that will literally be the end of it unless they find something, but my doctor doubts they will. He's just trying to rule out problems with absolute certainty. They're very, very thorough at this place. When I first went I had been miserable for such a long time that I was sure I had something awful wrong with me.
Since my preliminary diagnosis of panic attacks, I'm slowly getting back into the swing of things. I eat stuff like pizza now and then, for example. I had a burger the other day. Except for the minor issue with the pizza noted above, I've had no ill effects. Even when I wake up in the morning feeling not quite well, I force myself to go to work anyway. I'm fortunate that I have a job that allows me to work at the office or at home, but recently I've found I'll generally feel better if I go to the office. I haven't missed a day in a couple weeks, and if not for these tests this coming week I'm pretty confident I could make it through this week, too. I've also been trying to be more sociable, and I look for excuses to go to the grocery store or whatever. Being sedentary and giving myself time to think seems to be my worst enemy. When I can think of nothing else to do, a lot of times I go for a walk. My condo is right across the street from a city park so I've been going there a lot recently.
It's been a long road back. When I thought there was something wrong with me, exercise and going for groceries and hanging out with friends was always a harrowing experience. I'd get sicker just about every time I went out, which of course led to me being alone in my apartment way too much. That leads to depression and probably more anxiety, I guess.
I actually did see a post on here recently about some Australian (I think) CBT site, and I started doing that. So far it's nothing that I haven't been able to figure out for myself, but it's been good for reinforcement and I'm sure it'll also turn up something new as I continue with it.