i am new here and hope that maybe somebody can advice me...
Dont know exactly when things went wrong with me but I can remember an episode of my "illness" 4 years ago, basically what happened was during a stressfull time in my life I constantly had to go to the toilet to pee, which was very annoying, also cried alot and fell distressed. This time was stressfull to me but it wasnt a mayor stress factor and after two months all went away again.
Well now since March this year I have been falling to pieces and dont know what I can do anymore.
In March I did had a lot on.
1st. I moved houses, but that was in my benefit as I love my new home.
2nd. Out of the blue I lost my job, was quite upset as there wasnt any reasons for laying me off but coped quite well and got offered my old job back (my old job isnt great but it pays the bills)
The problems began with me having to travel ( It takes me an hour and a half to get to work), after 10 minutes on the bus I need the toilet for a pee as there isnt a chance to go on the way into work I basically are stuck with lots of pain and really getting anxious as course I dont want to pee when I cant. So after a week of this I decided not to drink anything in the morning hoping it might go away, went to the GP which did a urine test and the results were that all was ok, he said it might be stress.
After this period things gotten worse, every morning it gotten worse, now besides peeing I also need to go for a number 2, strangest thing is that I actually can go aswell (its not al in my head) After a month I went back again to the GP which said to me its anxiety and panic attacks and its all in my head, To be very honest I got quite upset as my live hasnt been that easy but to be honest I wasnt that stressed out at this stage of my live.
The GP gave me citalophram 20 mg a day. After a week of trying to get use to this I threw it away, this medicine made me feel stoned the whole day, got even worse due I would actually got diarrea and it was just to be scarey to be on that stuff. Also I drink alcohol in the weekends, actually most nights I have a glass of wine with dinner which cant be done with citalophram. I tried not to drink alcohol as well for a period of time and this didnt change my situation prior to taking citalophram. this last month I actually get ill every time I require to leave the house, anywhere I go its a struggle for me, I am actually doing a car share now which means it only takes 30 minutes to get to work but thats even a problem.
So now everyday I got to leave the house I atleast got to pee 6 times (not much) and also take imodium to ensure I wont get diarrea at work..its just a vicious circle of discomfort.
today I am going to my GP again and I got no clue on what to say as this morning I gotten so ill and upset that I couldnt face going to work..I so want to be able to get my life the way it was before march..this is just a living nightmare and all the GP wants to give me is anti depressants..
I would like to find out if this is something common and if someone else might of have the same problem and what they did...
I really hope someone can help me as I am really about to just give up on everything...