Ausie and Lyn,
Thanks for your replies! Actually, the main premise of her method is:
4)Let Time Pass
There's no going back to it later. I just am having a difficult time "accepting" as well as I should. I'll keep on working at it though.
I went to the pdoc today. He kept me on the Paxil, but said for me to come back in a month and we'd see whether it would be something to consider as to whether trying me on a different med like Effexor. He asked me WHAT i was thinking about
when the nervous feelings in my stomach start and I told him that all I'm thinking of is how I want them to stop and go away and how I hate them. He says, "No, I mean just before." And I honestly told him "nothing specific". I can wake up with these feelings. He STILL thinks I MUST be thinking of something. I told him that if I were, it would have to be subconsciencely. My friends, I am in turmoil and must take this one day at a time. I asked him about
xanax (he was happy that I've been not taking it) and how I sometimes want to take some, but then would feel guilty about
it. He said not to be ashamed or guilty-feeling about
it, but he'd rather I just stay away from it as it is such a short-term solution. To stick with the CBT approach. I'm just so tired, you know?
Today is here
And soon will be gone.
Use it wisely
Before it's too late
Remember to love
And forget to hate.