Ausie and Lyn,
Thanks for your replies! Actually, the main premise of her method is:
4)Let Time Pass
There's no going back to it later. I just am having a difficult time "accepting" as well as I should. I'll keep on working at it though.
I went to the pdoc today. He kept me on the Paxil, but said for me to come back in a month and we'd see whether it would be something to consider as to whether trying me on a different med like Effexor. He asked me WHAT i was thinking about
when the nervous feelings in my stomach start and I told him that all I'm thinking of is how I want them to stop and go away and how I hate them. He says, "No, I mean just before." And I honestly told him "nothing specific". I can wake up with these feelings. He STILL thinks I MUST be thinking of something. I told him that if I were, it would have to be subconsciencely. My friends, I am in turmoil and must take this one day at a time. I asked him about
xanax (he was happy that I've been not taking it) and how I sometimes want to take some, but then would feel guilty about
it. He said not to be ashamed or guilty-feeling about
it, but he'd rather I just stay away from it as it is such a short-term solution. To stick with the CBT approach. I'm just so tired, you know?