I know what you mean...it's the same way with my pdoc about
Xanax. Despite the fact that I was on it for 12 years and wasn't addicted, he still doesn't want me to take it any more. I've only had 2 doses in the last 2 months or so. I went to him on Monday and he actually told me that I may have these scary feelings in my stomach for the rest of my life...that was really "uplifting"! Yes, I'm being extremely saracastic there!!!!! It makes me soo very mad! I am dealing with gut-wrenching anxiety everyday and there it sits, my bottle of xanax, and I can't take any of it. Relief is a pill away, but "I may get addicted". The frustration is almost unbearable. I've been doing absolutely everything I can to help myself. Paxil, buspar, atenelol, lisinopril, self-help book, supplements, trying to apply CBT, I've cut out most sugar, progesterone cream, only drink water and skim milk, forcing myself to do everything I am expected to do, despite the anxiety and what do I get????!!!!! If only he would allow me to take a xanax in the morning to help me get the day off a little smoother. Sure, I could go ahead and take a xanax, but what about
when I run out? Do you think he'd refill it for me?!!??! Probably not!!! So here I am, suffering everyday, being anxious and depressed, while he goes about
his life feeling fine and yet telling ME that I may ALWAYS feel bad!! I could scream and cry all day, but that's just too bad for me. Yes, Hunnie, I know exactly what you mean.
Today is here
And soon will be gone.
Use it wisely
Before it's too late
Remember to love
And forget to hate.