Eric, thank you for your words of encouragement. I'm crying now. I'm always crying. Yes, I am tired but their is no rest for the weary. I have no support. I don't know how I'm going to get through this. I really don't. My Mom's place is only temporary and then where do I go? I'm soooooo tired. I'm soooooo broken. I just want to lay on the floor and do NOTHING but then what? They come and scrape me off the floor? I don't know what they can do at the hospital but I can't COPE anymore. I can't. I can't COPE. I seem to be incapable of dealing with all of this emotionally. I cry all the time, I worry, But, I love my dog so much and everytime I think about
it I feel like I'm going to miss my dog and I can't do that to him. I've had a breakdown which burned out my entire nervous system...chronic depression, anxiety, crying, panicking, talking over and over to people, looking for housing, employment, going to doctor after doctor. I'm completely and utterly burned out. I don't want to be. I want to be the "old Kelly." I want that so bad but I CAN"T. I just seem to not be able to pull out of this.
Eric, I'm so sorry for what you are going through. Don't let the depression take hold. Get on meds if you need to. I think that long-term depression & grief leads to a breakdown. Chronic pain can do that to you too, so, please take care of yourself.
*** Kelly you know the rules please no talk of death suicide or self harm **
I wish you all the best in all you try to accomplish but wanting to not be is not the answer you know that as well as I do ......Luvs
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