that does not sound cheesy at ALL. i wish too that i could still go about daily living without having a horrible scary thought enter my mind. i hate it. one thing that helped me is the book titled 'brainlock' by Dr. Jeffrey Swartz. it's for way to over come obsessive compulsive behavior (which is what i have). but it gives you an insight into 4 steps that help to get rid of unwanted intrusive disturbing thoughts. that helped calm me down, even though i don't follow them at the best of times. it's so hard to block things from your mind, when your mind is the most powerful thing in your body! i've tried to keep busy with other things to distract me. pretty much, it took time, like i mentioned before, i've been suffering with this since september. i get so depressed even thinking about september to about the end of october, because it was so bad, i hated even leaving the house. it was not a happy time at all in my life. like other people have mentioned regarding this situation, is that i hated living like this, but was terrified to die. with me, it was one worry after another. if my mind was racing of one scary thing, it would think of another scary thing to take the place of the current thought. it was such a vicious circle and still is somtimes. i honestly thought i was going crazy, then i started panicing and thinking and getting images of me losing my mind, being stuck in a mental hospital, etc. i hated waking up, because i knew it was going to be another day of suffering. like i mentioned though in the previous email, these forums are what calmed me down so much. i don't take meds, i'm against stuff like that, but it takes will power, something that i still have to work on!