This morning I woke up and said "I am going to have a good day, I will not let anxiety/pa;s get me down today." I fixed my attitude to be positive and had a lovely day until about
4 :00 o'clock. I had the worst panic attack I have had in a long time, I almost blacked out. I told myself nope I'm not dealing with you anymore and even though it hurt and I still felt the symptoms I carried on with what I was doing. I know this sounds stupid but it was almost like the fear got mad at me for not listening to it and thats why the attack was so bad. It continued to a really bad peak and I said well die then if thats what you need to do lol. I didn't of course. Maybe just maybe this is the road to recovery.
"The measure of a man's real character is what he would do if he knew he would never be found out." Thomas B. Macaulay