I am so sorry you are suffering so much right now. I have been at the point you are at right now, feeling completely overwhelmed and crying at the drop of a hat.
You are not alone in how you are feeling. It is a frightening, out of control feeling when we begin to experience serious health problems. It sounds like things began fairly recently for you in September. What you are experiencing is your mind's natural response to the crisis in your body. So take a deep breath BethEllen! You need coping strategies! There are things you can do to help yourself and regain some control.
Being on the forum is a great start. Having a little time off work is good too. Even though you might not have an immediate cure for your illness, remember that there are things you can do in the meantime to help yourself heal. Your body probably needs lots of rest and lots of fluids. Are there any dietary restrictions you need to follow?
Remember that knowledge is power and it is time for gathering information about
your illness. Make a list of all your symptoms. Do you feel your diagnoses are correct? Is there a link between any of the symptoms you are having ... the gall bladder, the tonsilitis, and the depression or are they separate issues?
It is a good time to learn as much as you can about
the medications you are taking, their side effects and so on. Keeping a journal of symptoms and writing dates when you start and finish your meds might be a good idea. Setting up your meds and making sure you take them at the right time is a way you can help take care of yourself. When you visit the doctors make notes of everything they say or have someone with you to make notes. I guarantee it is not possible to remember everything clearly when you are not well.
This is a good time to reach out to those you think might be able to help you with practical support. Are there people around who can help you, family or friends? Are any of them willing to listen to your concerns. Can anyone take you to doctor appointments, or help you out with chores you are finding difficult because of your condition?
Are you on any kind of medication to help ease your depression and anxiety? It's not the best thing for everyone but I do think it can be a good temporary measure to help during a really difficult time. It also might help to think about
seeing a counselor.
You might think this sounds too simplistic but there is nothing like a hot bubble bath, a refreshing cup of your favorite tea, a good chat with a friend and a decent nights rest. If you aren't sleeping well it's time to get that sorted out too! If the more natural remedies don't help a small dose of a prescript
ion sleep aid can be a godsend.
Please hang in there BethEllen! You are not alone! I hope some of this helps you. :)