I am so worried. Over the last part of the week or the weekend, justagirl11 posted on the depression site and I responded to her. She was having bad thoughts and was so down. I got her my # and my email address. She has been calling me since I posted two posts trying to look for her after she stopped posting.......fianlly she called and we talked for a long time. I told her I wasn't a doc, but I have depression also, and I know what she is going through. We talked in length about talking to her Mom and if she felt she couldn't maybe write her a letter, go to the nurse at school or an advisor at school or even her doctor.
She tried calling me again last night and then all of the sudden had to go. She emailed me at 2 am and told me she talked to her mom and her mom flipped out and told her it was all an excuse and that she just wanted to get out of schoolwork and such. Her mom took her cell away. I emailed to her that she really did now need to talk to an advisor or the nurse...they could help her with talking to her mom. She has thoughts of hurting herself and was treated last year.....won't go into details. One thing I made her promise me is that if she had bad thoughts to call me and we could talk it through. When I found out that her phone was taken away, I told her she could call me collect.....she could call any time of day or night. I have not heard back from her. I then saw that she posted today and got back a lot of the same responses I have been talking to her for hours with. I emailed her a number in her state and the email address for a crisis hotline....I hope she uses it.
My anxiety is so bad right now...I am so worried about someone I don't know, yet I do know her b/c she reminds me of me. I want to help and be there for her, why did she stop talking or emailing me and started to ask others? What did I do wrong??? I need some help to try and understand this and where to go from here.
S/P partial colectomy and colostomy, 12 anal fistula repairs and 1 rectal flap repair. OCD, PTSD, Depression, Anxiety, Panic attacks and hypothyroidism
On daily asacol, prednisone on and off, lomtil, ativan, klonopin fenatanyl, and vicodin for b/t and lunesta...thank god for that!