I was in the same place you are a few weeks ago. I'm still there every now and then. I totally understand where you are coming from. Sometimes it hurts to even think about moving around and doing anything. I deal with a plethora of things everyday. Some days it's all I can do to get out of bed. Today marks day 4 of not having been outside my house, not even outside the doorway. I tend to coop up and isolate when I feel this way. I know it doesn't do any good but there is only so much you can take on a daily basis and each day you have to decide where that line is.
I can also relate to an unsupportive husband. I lived with one for 10 years before I got the courage to leave his sorry a**. He was emotionally and verbally abusive. He thought all the aches and pains weren't real, I was making them up. He never believed me. I've never been one to fake anything like that or cry wolf for attension.
I'm remarried now to a wonderful supportive husband who worships the ground I walk on. He is my very best friend and I don't know what I'd do without him. He is my rock. He deals with all of my aches, pains and mood swings like a pro.
Every once in awhile I see that light at the end of the tunnel and sometimes it disappears from view but it's still there. Things can only get better, just keep your head up and trudge through it all.
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference."
DX: ankylosing spondylitis, periferal neuropathy, chronic migraines/headaches, depression/panic attacks, bi-polar, hypothyroidism, hypoglycemia, sleep apnea
RX: synthroid, estradiol, prozac, lamictal, inderal la, klonopin, seroquel, imiprimine, aspirin, (relpax, maxalt, phenergan, esgic plus, xanax, PRN for migraine)
Surgeries: hysterectomy 1997, tonsillectomy 2001, deviated septum 2005, cataracts (both eyes) 2006