Lord knows I've been where you are. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all this. It's very hard. Cry if you need to. Maybe it will cathartic, who knows? Take a hot bath, put smelly stuff in the water, lay there and relax. Light a candle, listen to soothing music. That's my only advise other than just hang in there. BTW, you'll notice I'm not good at taking my own advise. Hope that made you laugh a little.
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference."
DX: ankylosing spondylitis, periferal neuropathy, chronic migraines/headaches, depression/panic attacks, bi-polar, hypothyroidism, hypoglycemia, sleep apnea
RX: synthroid, estradiol, prozac, lamictal, inderal la, klonopin, seroquel, imiprimine, aspirin, (relpax, maxalt, phenergan, esgic plus, xanax, PRN for migraine)
Surgeries: hysterectomy 1997, tonsillectomy 2001, deviated septum 2005, cataracts (both eyes) 2006