I have suffered from anxiety for almost five years now. It all started after a very stressful time in my life and I haven't been able to shake it sense. Although I have improved and don't have daily panic attacks anymore, I'm still stuck in a rut that I need help with.
All my fears center around my heart. I have had tests done, but each time I feel a heart sensation, I feel like if I could have a doctor hook me up now (in the moment of a symptom), maybe I would be convinced this is really anxiety. Of course, the odds of that happening are slim, so I must fine other alternatives.
I have had EKGs (one as recent as May 2006), echocardiogram done in summer 2005 and a 24 hour holter done in 2005. In 2002 I also had a stress test done.
I don't get the out of the blue sudden fast heart rate as often anymore. But if I do feel anxious (for no reason) and I feel my heart rate start to accelerate (but not pounding super fast as in a full blown attack), I get very worked up over it. I try not to, but I do. If I feel a heart "skip" it will get me worked up though I admit not as much as it used it.
Sometimes I feel a sensation in my throat and I think it's my heart skipping a beat. Maybe it's not, but that's what I think.
I haven't worked out in years cause I'm afraid to get my heart rate up. I really could use some help on how to get over this. I want to extinquish this monster.
The other thing I do that I hate and cannot seem to break is I monitor my heart rate thru the day. I find myself putting my fingers on my wrist or my neck to find my heart rate and monitor to it. I don't even have to think about it anymore, I just do it and then it's downhill from there. Because either I think "oh oh, it's too fast" or "it's too slow". I dont' base this on anything, it's just that if I am used to my resting heart rate being in the 80s and then I take it and it's in the 60s I start to get worried.
Also, sometimes I get a sensation that my heart stopped and I immediately have to find my pulse to make sure it's still beating.
Does anyone have any suggestions for me. If I can get thru these major hurdles, I think I will be in better shape and the other minor symptoms I have will probalby go away too.