If you took every moment of every time you worried about
the " what ifs " and did something fun like whatever throwing snowballs laughing so hard you had tears rolling down your face and your tummy hurt just NORMAL everyday things I (n we) take for granted kinda and threw that caution to the wind not worried about
the what ifs hun you would have a great day and you would be a baby step closer to saying HEY I am gonna be okay
WE that have this DD IMO and the health anxiety are so hell bent on having this disease and that disease we dont see the beauty, laughter or other things in life ......
We suffer in silence our children do suffer IMO at least my Cait did ......and most of all I did
Until I finally found out my worst fears and that I was really sick and really had a chronic illness ( couple) and had to live with it every day .......BUT I AM ALIVE
NOW i no longer worry I actully was in denial of some issues but I took this wknd to bring them home to me and search for answers on what I was finally gonna do
Have I gotten so bad I cannot get out of bed to go play with Cait ......NOPE....
Am I so bad I have to stay hidden in covers crying silent tears all day n night .......NOPE
SO for me I decided to kick self in the gasket find the way outta that dang hole and see the wonders out here and there are so many I revelled in my daughters laughter and mine throwing snowballs I fell to the ground in tears of laughter and joy .....bones and muscles a bit sore lol
I look back and remember those that are so much more worse off then I am
I look at my dad who sometimes doesnt remember my name
I search for mom who is no longer there and I say to myself
LIVE .....lyn you have to live each day fight this hades of a illness any way you can with all you have got and dont let it get you back to where it had you and you will be fine.........I dont look online no more and I dont listen intently filing what ppl say they have or what has happened to someone thinking it is gonna happen to me
I have enough to worry about
with what I really do have................ not to go searching for more .....
I am not mininmising your dilemma hun at all just trying to show you it can be dealt with in many ways this is mine ..........
I know what you are going thru I have lived it and still have that monkey on my shopulder BUT I will not give it the time of day no more it has had enough of my life IMO.........
Take care and if ya wanna talk I am here k
You are not alone millions suffer from this same thing every waking moment of their lives
I refuse to suffer anymore ........
Just my opinion
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