need to vent about my health anxiety!!!!

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   Posted 2/4/2007 8:05 AM (GMT -6)   
I HATE IT! Everytime i hear a story about someone i am afraid of getting it..for example,, my biological grandmother died at 39 of ovarian cancer...i am 27 and am freaking out about ovarian cancer.. read all the symptoms... some fit me.. ex...lower back pain (although it only hurts when i am laying on my back),,,and gas (which i have GERD so thats probably why) and bowel issues (GERD again!).... i mean i know that i can rationalize things but it still freaks me out.. and also from what i have read... ovarian cancer is rare before menopause.. grrrrrr why do i do this to myself?!?! I  think that i am just scared of cancer all together.. if i have a bowel movement that doesnt seem right (sorry if TMI) i will think oh gee its got to be colorectal cancer! And of course some people dont know that they shouldnt tell you stories... I was talking oto my dad last night(we havent talked in yrs) and i informed him that i have MVP(mitral valve prolapse) and told him that the dr said it was very mild and rarely turns into anything.. my dads oh thats good,, however he proceeds to tell me about this girl who was 29 went to the local hospital the other day with chest pains.. they did a quick EKG said it was anxiety sent her home and an hr and a half later she was dead of a heart attack!!! GRRRRRRR why do people tell us anxiety sufferers that stuff! okay i am done venting.. geuss i was just looking for some reassurance... hope everyone has a good day!
Anxiety (self diagnosis)
GERD diagnosed 2002
Mitral Valve Prolapse diagnosed 2005
Seizure disorder diagnosed 1998

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   Posted 2/4/2007 8:52 AM (GMT -6)   
Hello Boolie
I don't know why people tell us these things but I do want to say that ovarian cancer can happen way before minipause. I had uterious cancer when I was 21 years old and had my uterious removed and then went back for surgery a year later because I had ovarian cancer.
I can't stress this enough ladies have those pap smears done regulary.
Sorry Boolie I'm not trying to scare you.
I have an illness, My illness don't have me.
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   Posted 2/4/2007 12:40 PM (GMT -6)   
this problem of being too suggestable effects some anxiety sufferers, its partly just a bad habit

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   Posted 2/4/2007 2:06 PM (GMT -6)   
If you took every moment of every time you worried about the " what ifs " and did something fun like whatever throwing snowballs laughing so hard you had tears rolling down your face and your tummy hurt just NORMAL everyday things I (n we) take for granted kinda and threw that caution to the wind not worried about the what ifs hun you would have a great day and you would be a baby step closer to saying HEY I am gonna be okay
WE that have this DD IMO and the health anxiety are so hell bent on having this disease and that disease we dont see the beauty, laughter or other things in life ......
We suffer in silence our children do suffer IMO at least my Cait did ......and most of all I did
Until I finally found out my worst fears and that I was really sick and really had a chronic illness ( couple) and had to live with it every day .......BUT I AM ALIVE
NOW i no longer worry I actully was in denial of some issues but I took this wknd to bring them home to me and search for answers on what I was finally gonna do
Have I gotten so bad I cannot get out of bed to go play with Cait ......NOPE....
Am I so bad I have to stay hidden in covers crying silent tears all day n night .......NOPE
SO for me I decided to kick self in the gasket find the way outta that dang hole and see the wonders out here and there are so many I revelled in my daughters laughter and mine throwing snowballs I fell to the ground in tears of laughter and joy .....bones and muscles a bit sore lol
I look back and remember those that are so much more worse off then I am
I look at my dad who sometimes doesnt remember my name
I search for mom who is no longer there and I say to myself
LIVE .....lyn you have to live each day fight this hades of a illness any way you can with all you have got and dont let it get you back to where it had you and you will be fine.........I dont look online no more and I dont listen intently filing what ppl say they have or what has happened to someone thinking it is gonna happen to me
I have enough to worry about with what I really do have................ not to go searching for more .....

I am not mininmising your dilemma hun at all just trying to show you it can be dealt with in many ways this is mine ..........
I know what you are going thru I have lived it and still have that monkey on my shopulder BUT I will not give it the time of day no more it has had enough of my life IMO.........
Take care and if ya wanna talk I am here k
You are not alone millions suffer from this same thing every waking moment of their lives
I refuse to suffer anymore ........
Just my opinion
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