Mary! You sound exactly like me! My number one symptom is dizziness! I have suffered with that for 13 years! It is a constant offbalance feeling...like I am about
to fall over. I feel very unsteady on my feet. I have had numerous ear testing done..the drs say it is NOT from my ears. It is a terrible feeling
I have two kids( ages 11 and 14) and I am the same as you. I get soo frustrated and angry because I am afraid to take them places because I am worried I will pass out or something will happen to me. My hubby didnt understand either. He divorced me because he couldnt stand being around me anymore *crys*. It just an utterly horrible situation.
I do try as hard as I can to FORCE myself to go places though. I figure...I have had this for so long...it is most likely not going to kill me, and if I dont go out now..I might never go out again and I dont want to become a hermit. Like today...I got up and was alittle dizzy, but I told my mom ...we are GOING OUT. I need to do this. So I just mustered up some courage, said a prayer and off I went. As you can see..I survived. Half of the battle is taking that FIRST STEP. Not letting the fear control you. I am a Christian and I know GOD is ultimately in control. So my life is in His hands. It is soo hard to let go of that fear though, I know.
My dr. gave me Klonopin to try and I havent taken one yet because I am afraid of medicines( side effects..etc). I used to be on .25 Xanax three times a day and I dont see where it really helped me at all. I am trying the natural route. Vitamins, minerals..etc. No herbs.
I used to be different as well. Never really afraid of anything. Always liked going shopping, family outings..etc..now, sometimes it is as if I am a prisoner in my own home. I just plain want to be normal again.
I am so sorry what you are going through...believe me, I understand.
God Bless you!!
prego mary said...
Ok so I have had this anxiety thing for a while. But it seems everyday something new happens. Is it normal for anxiety to make me feel dizzy and like I am going to pass out? Sometimes, I loose my balance and end up laying on the floor because I feel like I am spinning. My vision gets blurred. Or how about hearing the liquid in my ears move (which hurts really bad) every time somebody talks loud. My head always hurts, and I feel like I can never breath. I always feel like I am going to just die. It always makes me cry. Im so tired of feeling like trash all of the time. It is like I go to bed praying I have a "good" day tomorrow. I hate being in my house all day but I also hate going out. I cant even go out to eat with my family without ending up in a car, cold and alone because I cant be around so many people. How do I fix this? Should I force myself into public so I can learn to get used to being around more people? I cant even attend my sons school parties or go on trips with his class. Im a mother of three beautiful kids, whom I feel I will never be able to take to the park. My husband doesnt understand. He has to drag me out of the house. Then he gets upset because I am scared of getting into a car accient. I AM SCARED OF EVERYTHING. I wont even defend myself anymore because I am scared of getting into a fight. I used to be normal. I used to have hundreds of friends. I used to love to go out, and hang with my family. I was on a drug called Klonopin for my anxiety, but I have stopped taking it because I was having anxiety attacks on it.
Someone please help me........
'I do not ask the wounded person how he feels, I myself become the wounded person.' ....Walt Witman